[:en]There might be times in your life when it feels like you’re on an endless boot camp. My week’s certainly been one of those. I shared a very personal post earlier this week, and it affected me in many ways. I got to a point where I realized I need to move on with my life and cherish the memories of past love with fondness instead of sadness. There’s been a significant change in my brain and my heart. I still love him, I always will, but for my own good I need to move on. I’m not saying I’m desperate for a new relationship, as I’m probably not the ideal boyfriend anyway. I’m just saying I cannot live in the past regarding this as everything else in my life has moved on and I’m achieving great things on every single level (well, except I haven’t gained all those muscles I set as a goal… yet!). Love hurts, but love is also a beautiful thing. My memories will not fade, nor will my love for that person. I just need a closure and this week I’ve finally let my heart have a chance at just that. Maybe my heart is not completely healed yet, but at least it’s patched up and ready to move on. It’s time to love myself again as I realize a whole bunch of other people apparently do.
Something else also resulted from my post. As I opened up about what I’ve been through I noticed that people reacted in various ways. Some were sad, some were supportive, some were angry and even hurt. My intention with this blog is not to make people neither sad nor anything else of the above (well, except for supportive, please hold on to that). However, this is not only a blog about fashion and jet setting or whatever. It’s a blog about me. There may be superficial posts in here and they will keep popping up, but the essence of this blog is honesty. Honesty in how I feel, what I think, what I like and don’t like as well as more worldly things such as the outfit in this picture which is a great start if you’re about to join the French Legion and wanna do it with some style and dignity.
To all of you who have contacted me lately: Thank you for helping me heal! That’s what friendship and love is all about and I’m spreading as much love back out there as I can. Over and out.