Sometimes it’s hard to grasp what’s going on in your life until you sit down and reflect on things. I mean, really sit down and reflect on things. It’s not a moment of reflection forced upon us, but reflection through meditation, mindfulness or whatever it may be that brings you to that place where your thoughts and feelings are cleansed from any distraction. I might get there by listening to music, catching a certain scent or odour that makes me reminisce the past or even watching the opening scene of Lion King (Cirlce of Life, always makes me cry, but hey, that’s me).
One of these moments was during a recent event in my life when I was at my great aunt’s funeral. Being in a church close to God always makes me ponder, but this time it was a time to both reminisce, honor her memory, but also think about the legacy she left me. Let’s be honest. I’ve been going at it like a whirlwind the last 5 or so months since I began blogging and by now it is no secret that the aim has been to quit my day job to be able to move back home to Stockholm and pursue my career in blogging and PR, like in the good old days. That is something that is about to happen, very soon, I might add.
The journey I’ve been through is quite hard to describe, but without boasting I can say that I’ve managed to pull through so many things I thought were impossible before. I’m now making real money out of my blog and am ranked as number 28 out of professional bloggers in Sweden which is not bad considering the short amount of time I’ve blogged and the fact that there are over 100 000 blogs registered in Sweden.
So what does that mean? Am I living the high life? Some people might consider my life as such, but I’m just back to where I’ve always been, the difference being, this time I’m stronger and more focused than ever (and actually know the value of money). And to be honest. Traveling as intensely as I do is not glamourous. Far from it. Am I one of those superficial bloggers now? Most definitely not. I’m the most humble person you’ll meet and couldn’t care less about what’s hot or not. I go my own way and that’s probably what’s gained me my beloved readers. I’m just me, Thomas, and that’s more than enough.
So what is it I need to reflect on? Well, mainly two things. They are highly intertwined, but I’ll still separate them. The first one is I need to start living in the present. I need to appreciate the life I have and all accomplishments I’ve achieved. There’s no way of describing the feeling of how it feels to be back from the gutter to be in the world I once was part of again. I need to reflect on the fact that I’ve made it. I’m there and no one can take that away from me, but myself (note to self, stay sober). I need to stop thinking about what’s coming up next and what’s behind the corner, what my next move will be and as a person with severe OCD when it comes to planning it’s sometimes hard to just let things go and live in the present. Now that I wrote them down, I realize they can actually be viewed as individual issues or several separate ones. However you choose to interpret what I just wrote, I interpret it simply by this: Slow down, live in the present, by all means, plan ahead, but don’t live in the future.
These pictures were taken on a bloody cold day in London during London Fashion Week Men’s with the incredibly talented model and photographer Helen Wykes, who also gave me a lot of new perspectives on life. Through blogging I get to meet so many new people, experience new things and be part of something I love doing. I can honestly say that today, this very moment, I feel both blessed and at peace with both my past, present and future, whatever it may bring. As for me, the sky is not the limit. There are no limits.