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[:en]I’m not made of steel, but I’m filled with hope[:sv]Jag är inte gjord av stål, men jag är fylld med hopp[:]

[:en]I’m not made of steel, but I’m filled with hope[:sv]Jag är inte gjord av stål, men jag är fylld med hopp[:]

Fashion, Life itself

[:en]You know those days that are supposed to be perfect? It’s Saturday, the sun is shining for the first time in like a month and you’re finally rid of the flu that made you immobile for more than a week. Yet, you don’t feel the joy of the things mentioned above. That was me when I woke up this morning. I had some kind of mental hangover from events past, present and future. I’m quite good at telling other people what they should do regarding things, such as not to dwell in the past, to live in the present and not to live in the future. Yet I’m probably the one who should read all my blog posts all over again to actually imprint these wisdoms into my own consciousness. Everything else would be sanctimonious,but some days you just don’t feel the energy no matter what.

Not that I read all my past posts, but I really tried to figure out what was wrong, just to come to the conclusion that nothing is wrong. Life is good. I decided to actually go out there, enjoy a nice walk in the park (where I fed the birds with some stale bread, being the old crazy cat lady I am), noticed spring had made its arrival with some pretty flowers and lots of happy people who just like me wanted a dose of that long missed vitamin D. Guess what? That small walk in the sun while listening to music actually made all the difference. I got back home and began making all kinds of chores as well as some packing for my coming move. Filled with gratitude and hope.

Probably it has been my upcoming move back home to Stockholm that has been taking a lot of my mental resources lately as it’s not just a move, there are so many other life changing decisions involved. I’m opening so many new doors all the time without really closing any behind me, except the ones that need to be closed. Today I decided to open up the door to happiness. That was a great choice as I haven’t felt this good in a long, long time. To be happy really is a choice. To be positive is a choice. To embrace life is a choice. By making these choices you don’t only decide your present state of mind. You also decide on what is going to happen in the future and right now the future is bright. All you need is faith. Faith in yourself, life and in my case a higher power.

Cap: H&M
Hoodie: ORCA Fashion Line
Sweater: ORCA Fashion Line
Shoes: Washed Rocks Footwear 

Photographer: Joanna Bladh, Photostory[:sv]Vissa dagar är bara gjorda för att vara perfekta. Det är lördag, solen skiner första gången på typ en månad och du är äntligen frisk från feber och förkylning som du dragits med i över en vecka. Ändå känner man inte glädjen från något av dessa och det är precis så jag kände mig när jag vaknade imorse. Det kändes som om jag hade en mental bakfylla utan dess like både vad gäller det förflutna, det samtida, men även det framtida. Jag är väldigt duktig på att predika för andra hur de borde leva sina liv för att bli lyckligare, men jag tycks inte leva efter mina egna deviser och borde nog läsa både ett och annat tidigare blogginlägg jag själv skrivit. Allt annat vore skenheligt, men vissa dagar känner man bara inte av energin oavsett vad.

Jag har verkligen inte suttit och läst samtliga inlägg från tidigare under dagens lopp för att försöka lista ut vad som var fel, men efter lite självrannsakan kom jag fram till att inget är fel och att livet är bra. Jag beslutade mig för att ge mig ut i vårvädret för en promenad i Stadsparken här i Lund och som den galna gamle gubbe som pratar med sig själv som jag är så stod jag där och matade fåglarna med medhavt bröd ett tag och njöt av att se vårblommorna vakna till liv efter en vad som känns som en evighetslång vinter. Jag var inte ensam. Halva stan tycks ha saknat solen här i Skåne, så där jag gick runt och lyssnade på musik insåg jag att vi alla nog har saknat d-vitamin ett bra tag här nere. Denna vitaminboost fick mig att börja bocka av saker på min att-göra-lista här hemma och allt från matlagning till tvättstuga till att packa inför min stundande flytt till Stockholm har pågått. Allt medan jag känt ro, tacksamhet och hopp.

En trolig energitjuv på sistone har nog varit den nämnda flytten till Stockholm som inte enbart innebär en fysisk flytt från A till B utan även handlar om en stor förändring i livet. Livet förändras från grunden och att hålla alla bollar i luften samtidigt har gjort mig mentalt utmattad. Jag öppnar konstant nya dörrar och stänger bara de som stängas bör bakom mig. Med alla dessa öppna dörrar kan det ibland vara svårt att veta vilken man ska kika in genom, men man har ett val. Man kan välja att öppna dörren till lycka. Att vara glad är ett val. Att vara positiv är ett val. Att omfamna livet är ett val. Genom att göra dessa val beslutar du inte enbart hur du ska må just nu, utan påverkar i allra högsta grad även vad som framtiden för med sig. Just nu är framtiden väldigt ljus. Allt man behöver är tilltro. Tilltro till sig själv, livet och i mitt fall en högre makt.

Keps: H&M
Hoodie: ORCA Fashion Line
Tröja: ORCA Fashion Line
Skor: Washed Rocks Footwear 

Fotograf: Joanna Bladh, Photostory[:]


  1. Darlene
    March 12, 2017 at 1:28 am

    This is what I just needed to hear. It’s been crazy schedule as well for me and exactly what you’re going they. I was also sick from my cold and it’s been really horrible. But just now starting to feel good again. I truly love everything you said as I have been losing faith lately with myself. Thanks for the awesome reminder


  2. Mariann yip
    March 12, 2017 at 1:40 am

    I definitely agree. You’re always going to have some off days but I think it’s important to be grateful for what you do have and just have hope like you said 🙂

  3. Jenn Hanft
    March 12, 2017 at 5:22 am

    Aw Thomas it makes me so happy that you chose to open the door to happiness! Positivity is definitely a choice and it makes you feel SO good! We all have our off days, you know I know that 😉 hah, but we all pull through once we get ourselves in the right mindset to do so! It’s crazy how the smallest of gestures can have such a huge impact, like a simple walk to brighten your day. Reading this made me want to take a stroll myself, but it’s past midnight in NY and it must feel like below zero outside. I’ll be sure to do a walk tomorrow in spirit of you 🙂 keep going!!

    With love,

  4. Jennifer SavvyGreyStyles
    March 12, 2017 at 6:06 am

    I am so glad you were able to open your self and be positive. Love your post. Have a great weekend.

  5. Anthony @oh_anthonio
    March 12, 2017 at 7:38 am

    Oh man i HATE those days but i LOVE that hoodie! Wishing you a stress-free move and lots of success in Stockholm!

  6. Jenelle
    March 12, 2017 at 11:43 am

    Going for a walk like that, and listening to music you love makes a world of a difference! I got a bit like that a few weeks ago and literally going for a run outside while listening to Prince made me so happy and able to shake off those feelings of being a bit stuck. Faith in yourself and being in the now. So vital!
    xx Jenelle

  7. Lady Goldapple
    March 12, 2017 at 1:30 pm

    I’m happy for you that you’ve been able to open yourself up and be positive again. Keep your had up and have faith in the good. You start to feel better and that reflexes on the things and people surrounding you. And that will make you happy as well is my believe. X Charissa

  8. frank lin
    March 12, 2017 at 2:13 pm

    Oh Thomas, I know exactly what you mean.
    I have the same problem these days..
    I hope you’re doing well!

    xx frank

  9. gracie
    March 12, 2017 at 3:03 pm

    I agree wholeheartedly !!! We have to chose to be happy and connect with our inner self to move forward with a positive attitude. Can’t wait to go out and enjoy the sunshine and bounce off those good vibes ! Thanks for always staying so positive & glad you are feeling better 🙂
    xx, gracie

  10. Kirsten Wendlandt
    March 12, 2017 at 4:28 pm

    Sometimes all you really need to do is get outside and enjoy the wonders of nature when you’re feeling down. I don’t know if it’s the vitamin D or just the beauty of nature but I find it always picks me up!

  11. Luke
    March 12, 2017 at 6:51 pm

    Glad to hear you are on the mend Thomas and looking after yourself. You deserve to be happy so let yourself be happy! Keep up the great work.

  12. Martin (Ebylife)
    March 12, 2017 at 7:14 pm

    So glad to hear you’re finally out of bed and on the mend. You know, my dad once said to me “If you’re anxious, you’re living in the future, if your depressed, you’re living in the past but if you’re content, you’re living in the present. It is always something that has stuck with me and this alone is often enough to help me stay present. Hope this somewhat helps buddy!

  13. Jo
    March 12, 2017 at 8:03 pm

    When I saw your IG stories about feeding the ducks in the park yesterday, I was extremely happy. Glad you decided to step out and enjoy outdoors which doesn’t just help with your body but also healthier mind. Opening door to the happiness and being positive will definitely help you getting through this move back home to Stockholm. The future is super bright for you as you said. And I will be here every step of the way, my love.

    With love,

  14. Stephanie
    March 13, 2017 at 12:16 am

    I have totally been in that situation (maybe even more than once in the past week). It can be such a challenge to “snap out of it” on those days, and sometimes I just do the same as you – get out and try to enjoy life and be aware of the many things I’m blessed with. It’s a change in perspective that can sometimes make a world of difference. I hope you can continue on in that mentality. You’re a strong one, Thomas!

    Stephanie //

  15. Candace
    March 13, 2017 at 3:26 am

    Nice, solo walks are so good for the soul. They allow me to clear my head and meditate and actually find out things about myself that I probably wouldn’t have ever figured out. Enjoying life and nature are both great ways to stay out of those ruts and to help us realize that nothing is wrong and every day is a new day and a blessing. Glad you were able to see that 🙂

  16. Gina Diaz
    March 13, 2017 at 3:40 am

    You always have such an amazing and interesting titles in the blog post!!! so catchy to the eye, I am happy to read this post and to see that you have chosen the right things, Thomas :))) Yes, we all need to have emunah (faith) love those words… xx Gina

  17. Samantha Mariko
    March 13, 2017 at 4:04 am

    Sending you all the positive vibes out to you from Japan 🙂 I totally agree how it’s all about the mindset, and the small things in your daily life that can make a difference. I also like taking a step back to analyze what will help keep me uplifted and positive, and try to rid the things that pull me back from that. I really hope your move back to Stockholm goes smoothly <3

  18. Aimara
    March 13, 2017 at 4:19 am

    So beautiful and inspirational as usual Thomas!
    And couldn’t agree more, happiness is a choice and so is being positive.
    We all have dark days where we feel like we should be out enjoying life and the nice weather (just the few times that happens lol) but yet, it’s hard to think of going out. I’ve been there. And also know that going outside does make all the difference, so glad you did my friend!
    Cheers to an awesome week ahead!
    PS: You look amazing as always! Love your style!

  19. Sharon Wu
    March 13, 2017 at 5:00 am

    I’ve learned over the years that it really is mind over matter. When I think positive, then good things happen to me! Btw, you’re moving?! I am moving next month too and totally understand how draining it can be. I wish you the best on your move and hope that full time blogging has been going well for you so far! xoxo, sharon

  20. Cece Lam
    March 13, 2017 at 5:07 am

    Thomas, you’re absolutely in the right place!! I hate dwelling on the past and would definitely try my best to focus on what’s ahead instead. You keep inspiring us with your blog posts 🙂 Thank you for sharing them with us!!

  21. Agnes
    March 13, 2017 at 8:16 am

    Aw love this post! Life is indeed good and you’re doing amazing Thomas. Keep at it!

  22. Coco
    March 13, 2017 at 12:09 pm

    Thomas isn’t it great how you can look inside yourself and find the answers? Many people who haven’t gone through the pain you have don’t know what introspection means. But then also a walk in the nature can help you take your mind off thoughts that don’t lead anywhere. Be kind to yourself! You have gone through a lot, you are diving into new waters and you’ve been doing great. If you add flu and season blues, you should allow yourself some bad days in your way 🙂 this little brother thing is kind of going out of control! Shut me up whenever you feel like it! I love this casual look and the pictures are stunning! Baci, Valeria – Coco et La vie en rose FASHION & BEAUTY

  23. Karina
    March 13, 2017 at 4:26 pm

    Hey Darling Thomas,
    When I started to read your Blogpost I got scared and worried but after When I red that you had a Nice walk and you are Okay, I calm down. We all have ups & down and Nature, Sun, Good Music or just Being Somewhere outside helps a Lot:)
    Thank you for sharing this with us, You are strong and I know every day you are Even more:)))
    The Cap is sooo Cute on you:)
    Really Liked:)
    Love Open Kloset By Karina

  24. Debbie Savage
    March 13, 2017 at 9:17 pm

    Wow! How timely is this post for me! Thank you so much for being real. I too, sometimes wonder and think about the same things. If I done enough, am I completely happy, what’s my place in this world! LOL! Thank you for reminding me that it is in the small things where there is beauty — we all have a purpose in life. Surrounding yourself around uplifting and supportive people makes all the difference! So, happy to meet you and keep shining!
    Debbie |

  25. Rachel Vogt
    March 13, 2017 at 9:39 pm

    Aww i love this post. Love your outfit, too.

  26. EVA
    March 13, 2017 at 10:04 pm

    Of course you choose the life Thomas, with all beauties around. Happiness is a choice of life but is not easy to create this state of mind. You’re a good capacity to write and love read your thoughts.
    very nice in this pictures from jeans to your adorated sneakers, the entire outfit.


  27. Stacey - Posh in Progress
    March 13, 2017 at 10:41 pm

    I so needed this today. I was in such a bad mood this weekend and I take for granted all the good stuff.

  28. Iliana
    March 14, 2017 at 6:26 am

    Yay! Thomas it makes my heart so happy to hear and know that you’re choosing to be happy because you deserve it. I really hope to meet you one day and just hug you and tell you that you totally are worthy and never forget God loves you.

  29. Josie
    March 14, 2017 at 6:25 pm

    This post really comes at the right time. I have been feeling quite down lately but reading this just gave me a boost of hope and gratitude as well. It is always so easy to focus on the wrong things in life. I want to stay full of hope and have faith that God knows what’s good for me. I’m really glad to know you have chosen happiness Thomas.
    Wishing you a quick move hehe

    xo, Josie

  30. Miki
    March 14, 2017 at 11:41 pm

    Our own minds has so much power over us. If we think positively, have faith and work hard, we truly get to places we want to go, but I totally get how you feel; there are times I feel anxious and stressed out. When I ask myself why, I honestly sometimes realize that everything is great and it puts my mind back on track. Sometimes we make big things out of small things, and it’s always so easy giving advice to others but we are our own worst critics and the hardest on ourselves, right? Happy moving Thomas!


    March 14, 2017 at 11:48 pm

    Your posts are always so inspiring! Sometimes if the feelings can’t be shifted alone, writing things down and expressing your gratitude like you have done in this post might just do the trick! Love your outfit as usual and yay to Vitamin D appearances x

    Tatyana x

  32. Jo
    March 15, 2017 at 1:30 am

    Happy to hear you’re feeling better and that you’ve had a moment to just chill. I love taking small walks, especially when I’m feeling overwhelmed or worked up about something. Even a small amount of time can do wonders to refresh and reset. Wishing you all the best with your move back to Stockholm!

    xoxo, Jo

  33. Kristen
    March 15, 2017 at 2:49 am

    Thank you so much for this post and being real! Much needed read. I too have those days. Warm sun and music is the best medicine. I hope I get to enjoy some this weekend. Good luck with your move.

  34. Jessica
    March 15, 2017 at 5:24 am

    Your candor and honest words make this such a great post. xo, Jessica

  35. marcy
    March 15, 2017 at 8:38 am

    Yes babe happiness is a choice and also embracing life and only you can decide this no-one else.
    LOVE reading this positive post. Keep the great vibes Thomas.
    Great look btw:)


  36. Bryanna
    March 15, 2017 at 6:35 pm

    Sometimes you just need a mental recharge. I totally understand how you are feeling. Maybe it’s just your mind wandering and overthinking, as much as we do. Enjoying the fresh air and getting out in the world is always great way to recharge and a killer outfit always helps! Love how classic and simple this look is, but you always have something fun and different to add. By that, I mean the hat! Such a cool piece to really bring the rest of the look together.

    xoxo Bryanna | Coming in Clutch

  37. Jennifer Quattrucci
    March 15, 2017 at 6:59 pm

    Dearest Tommy,
    My beautiful friend, this entire post makes me so happy! First of all the fact that you are finally better makes me sigh with relief and then your careful reflection and opening the door to happiness makes it all even so much better! This outfit is truly perfect ! I love the impeccable fit and that hat is my absolute favorite!!!
    Love always,
    Your Jenny

  38. Dom
    March 16, 2017 at 4:39 am

    Hello Tommy,
    First off I’m glad you are feeling better. I’m sorry that flu took you down for a bit. Always posting your honest feelings and that’s what makes your blog and outfits truly stand out above the rest. Obviously you know I can agree and relate to all of this. Always have faith and like our dearly departed princess Leia once said, HOPE. Also, i really love that hat! You rock this look as per usual dude!
    Can’t wait to draw more inspiration from you soon.
    All my love,

  39. Bernice
    March 16, 2017 at 11:39 am

    So true Thomas! The key to our happiness rests on ourselves and how we choose to view our life, and how we spend it xx—from-Michael-Hill

  40. Jen
    March 17, 2017 at 1:00 am

    I’m a firm believer in enjoying the simple things in life. We often take so much for granted. A little gratitude will go a long way. I really want to take a walk in the park and feed stale bread to the birds. That sounds so relaxing in some strange way hahaha. And I have two cats so I literally am a crazy cat lady, lol. I hope you can enjoy the beauty of the simple things in life. Your life is precious Thomas!

  41. Jordan Chapman
    March 17, 2017 at 5:56 pm

    Faith and hope are powerful things! They motivate and I can really see how you’re working and keeping going! I’m so happy that you’re happy and I think it’s amazing!
    Jordan xx

  42. Eric k
    March 18, 2017 at 3:38 am

    As always reading your blog takes you to your experiences and we experience everything with you together. We are all going through the mental stuff. What you did definitely is the best thing to do and that is what I do when I need to clear my mind.
    I am so happy that you are feeling better as well. Your style is always at the highest level .
    thank you buddy

  43. Darya
    March 19, 2017 at 12:05 pm

    Thomas, Thank you for this post!
    I felt really depressed while I always inspire people. Let’s call it exhausted…

    But these small walks are really helpful for mental recharge. will do it right now.


  44. Deddeh Howard
    March 20, 2017 at 12:14 am

    I my self enjoy those little moments of walking in the park. I try to leave my phone home once a day to just be free and enjoy life because life is beautiful. You look amazing!!

  45. Laurelle
    March 20, 2017 at 5:09 am

    I loved this! I also find myself in a rut too, sometimes, and you’re so right that sometimes exercise to fresh air and nature is just the cure! Ibelieve in the God of the Bible, and also find that praying and reading about His love for me and His kindness and faithfulness helps me a lot too. Thanks for always being real!

  46. Leila D.
    March 21, 2017 at 6:19 pm

    Hi Thomas! I’m glad you finally feel better. Spring has arrived and I’m happy too, love new beginnings and I agree happiness is a choice , it’s a state of mind, a way how you look at the world.
    Love your outfit, it’s perfect for spring. xoxo

  47. Ria
    March 21, 2017 at 8:17 pm

    I’ve been feeling a huge lack of energy lately, I’m physically sick but I think it’s mental too but it makes me feel okay knowing I’m not alone in these feelings.

  48. Aleksandra Ladygin
    March 23, 2017 at 10:13 am

    Yes sometimes small walk in the sun really helps and faith in yourself is a most important thing.
    As for me, i am feeling so weak and tired. Need some energy! And it makes me behave like a sleepy fly. It is spring… Maybe i need some walk in the sun as well…
    I wish you creative and energetic spring!

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