You know those days that are supposed to be perfect? It’s Saturday, the sun is shining for the first time in like a month and you’re finally rid of the flu that made you immobile for more than a week. Yet, you don’t feel the joy of the things mentioned above. That was me when I woke up this morning. I had some kind of mental hangover from events past, present and future. I’m quite good at telling other people what they should do regarding things, such as not to dwell in the past, to live in the present and not to live in the future. Yet I’m probably the one who should read all my blog posts all over again to actually imprint these wisdoms into my own consciousness. Everything else would be sanctimonious,but some days you just don’t feel the energy no matter what.
Not that I read all my past posts, but I really tried to figure out what was wrong, just to come to the conclusion that nothing is wrong. Life is good. I decided to actually go out there, enjoy a nice walk in the park (where I fed the birds with some stale bread, being the old crazy cat lady I am), noticed spring had made its arrival with some pretty flowers and lots of happy people who just like me wanted a dose of that long missed vitamin D. Guess what? That small walk in the sun while listening to music actually made all the difference. I got back home and began making all kinds of chores as well as some packing for my coming move. Filled with gratitude and hope.
Probably it has been my upcoming move back home to Stockholm that has been taking a lot of my mental resources lately as it’s not just a move, there are so many other life changing decisions involved. I’m opening so many new doors all the time without really closing any behind me, except the ones that need to be closed. Today I decided to open up the door to happiness. That was a great choice as I haven’t felt this good in a long, long time. To be happy really is a choice. To be positive is a choice. To embrace life is a choice. By making these choices you don’t only decide your present state of mind. You also decide on what is going to happen in the future and right now the future is bright. All you need is faith. Faith in yourself, life and in my case a higher power.